Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Whoooaaaa.

Today's improvement after 2weeks of daily yoga. I set up an internal clock for myself to wake up. Set my alarm at 630am but i woke up at 620am. Also i can sleep earlier nowadays im off by 11am. Argh just love this little by little changes i've made in life. 

Happiness is all around me. Got some of my favourite teas, my mooncake, my date nectar, and also my pistachio. Life is great. Alhamdullillah. Thanks Allah for blessing me w all the goodness in life. 

Its all about finding the innerself through the self. Hah. Complicated. I dont get that phrase before this, but now, i totally get it. 

May we be cherish w love, peace and calmness always. 

On the other note, cooking up some pumpkin risotto today. So excited to cut that cute little pumpkin. Great day ahead peeps. 


Monday, August 26, 2013

From crossfit to yoga.

Feeling a inspired to write today. So im gonna rant about my thoughts on changing my fitness addiction from crossfit to yoga and mainly my take on this whole journey of being a so called self taught yogi.

Previously, i have been crazy over kettlebell, box jump, and HIIT training. Till the day that i found out i have tendonitis which affected my left wrist. Its been frustrating for me as i cant workout or carry my kettlebell. No overhead press are allowed as i will aggravate the injure tendon more. I had my one week rest and it still didnt get any better. Everytime i carry my 12kg KB on my left, i feel this burning sensation on my wrist and my hand will start to vibrate. I got really sad, spoke to the hubster abt it and he told me rest. Again! And being the fitness freak, i cant stop. I feel empty when i dont sweat. Its like im missing something. Haha. Then... I started to go back to yoga. Yes, i incorporate yoga too in my fitness routine but it wasnt really focusing on it. It was mainly to switch up my routine. 

To cut short, i began practicing yoga again and i fell in love with it. Like head over heels. Haha like seriously what other exersice allows u to have your head touching ur bum? Haha seriously those twisting and bending, its amazing. U'll be amaze of what ur body can do actually. Yoga is all about calmness, balancing, flexibility and coolness. Like doing something without stressing it. As for me, i am blessed w flexibility. not that much. but im quite flexible. so it was a smooth start. And one thing i know is that yoga needs lots of core muscles. U need to have strong core to balance, to lift ur hips up in certain poses. Then, i started to read up about all the goodness of yoga, the anatomy, the breathing, the types of yoga to the yogic diet. Yeah u name it, google was my best friend for the past few months.

I started being vegan last week. Not for life. But for 7 days. Just to have that feel since most yogi are vegan. Why? Cos it has something to do with the ayuverdic. Google it up. Im lazy to type haha. So but actually yoga is about balancing and being healthy. Eat more greens not processed food. As yoga is all about cleansing and purification of the inner self. So yeah, today is my 5th day, and i actually feel just fine without meat. And it was easy for me as i have been practicing clean eating, no big difference. Just no more eggs and tuna. I actually feel more energetic and i sleep better at night, i used to have insomnia. But now im happy that i can sleep :) hah theres a plus point there. 

What other plus point? I move a step further in my poses. Yay! Manage to do the crow, side crow, and half of the headstand. Thats like an accomplishment in life u know. So happy of how much my core has strengthen and my arms got stronger. Its just beyond amazing. 

After thinking in depth. I wouldnt be a vegan or vegatarian or lacto-ovo vegetarian or pescetarian in specific. I will just live healthy and go green and be healthy in my choice of food. Over this week, i've realized that after eating greens i've lost the temptation of eating unhealthy food. I dont crave them anymore. So im just going by the rules of eating healthy nutrituous food that will bring energy and balance. Like the french said, pay attention to what i eat. I dont need to be vegan in order to be a yogi. But my diet will consist mostly greens and other healthy food to give me energy. Im instilling consciousness in whatever i do. To find peace in oneself, one has got to let go. I will ensure that this journey will be for the benefit of all. Happier life and less stress 😊

Have a great week ahead. I hope it will be a good and blessed one. Here's my happy post yoga face with the little yogi.



Tuesday, August 13, 2013

of celebration and calories

my god. this raya was one whiny cranky grouchy raya. baby boy was unwell. teething and diarrhea. had to deal with a cry baby the entire holiday. yeap lucky in the sense that we need not have to travel  long distance to both hubs and my parents house cos we are both from ipoh. thats a blessing. i wonder how adrian will be if he had to suffer hours of traffic jam in the car.

other than that, we enjoyed food to the maximum. which i think this year raya, i ate the most biscuits, rendangs, lemangs, peanut sauce( imma sucker for peanuts. i eat them all alone without nasi impit or ketupat). not to mention how i wallop all those mee rebus, rojak, mee goreng, satay and cendol during in laws open house. yeah shoot me now. but thanks for eating clean. alhamdullillah i did not gain weight. weehoo. probably gain water weight. thats all. ehehe

and finally today i can resume back to my clean eating routine and i never feel happier. for once i can be at the comfort of my own house and not having ppl judging me for throwing away the egg yolks. yeah i throw my yolks away. so what. blergh stop glaring at me like i just murdered someone. grrr

adrian is getting better. everyone can resume to their everyday routine and no mote cry baby and annoyed parents. both adrian and i need some peace and quite time. hahha yeah we are anti social like that. we like to cuddle in the room w no one else except daddy. say whatever, we dont like loud environment. we are the cool ppl. haha

cant wait to wake up to a brand new day. and a big bowl of oatmeal to start my day. good night earthlings :) sleep tight. thank god for what we have today.  

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Ramadan 2013

I have been awake for almost 24hours. Yeay way to go supermom lol this year has been a very eventful ramadan. Went for iftar at in laws, my FIL mom's house in Bidor and did i tell you food spread grew this year too. Had so much food everytime for iftar. And being the always hungry ppl, we wallop everything on the table. Such greedy ppl. Lol

This year i pray and hope for a smooth ramadan with lots of patience. Adrian is growing actively, i need some sort of miracle to cope w this young man. Fuhh.. He is driving us crazy. Love to see how full of energy he is. 

So, today i've been up since 730 am. No rest. Went out for our daily drive around town. Bought some cake stuff. Yup i baked banana and dates bread today to bring to bidor. Delicious i swear. No picture cos it was gone minutes after it was served. Actually i got no time to holdmy phone. Went straight to bidor right after the bread came out from the oven. 

Had crazy delicious iftar over there, with nasi briyani salim from ipoh, lamb kurma, big ass prawns, chicken curry, sweet n sour fish, veggie, curry puff, my banana dates bread, manggo juice. Omg crazy. Dunkin donut on the way back. Garghh im a fat pig. Oh that iftar spread i posted in insta was from yesterday's hahaha.

Came back, did my assignments. And clock in my 1 hour interval yoga at 3.40am. Omg so many thing to do, so little time. Im swamped. Next week, is doa selamat at orphanage hosted by my in laws. I love the fact that this year, i have so many things to do and i dont waste my day time counting hours to buka. Hahaha plus i have adrian to distract me. 

Ok i should sleep. Or adrian gonna have a grumpy cranky mommy tmr. Lol. 

Selamat berpuasa! May u all have a blessed ramadan!  xx


Monday, July 1, 2013

July.

Havent been on blogspot for soo long, mainly cos i was occupied w family related activities and also keeping up w my fitness. 

Here's a confession.. Shh dont tell anyone. I ate Mcdonalds 2 days ago. Spicy chicken wrap, fries ( yup i gobble down on a large McD fries), and their apple pie. Day before i had 3 tosai in one sitting together with chicken curry and dhal. And i also had the fattening malay dishes. Gulai lemak and what not. Omg i've sinned. Hahaha but i feel good right after. That McD was a bittersweet closure to it. I really wrapped it up with the most fattening not healthy artery clogging meal ever. 

Back to clean eating now. My tummy is still bloated from all those sodium. Water retention mainly. I think i gained some weight. I've been on two scales, one says 48kg and the other 50 kg. i dunno which to trust. I have trust issues btw. Lol.

Fitness update: i've not been doing my KB exersice religiously now, cos im still having that numbness from mytendonitis, and i dont want to further hurt it with excessive usage of my wrist. So i'll go slow. No snatches at the moment. What you need to know is that i got addicted to yoga. Seriously im hooked. Used to do yoga, then i got bored cos i dont see results. But now that i found interval yoga, my life has never been better. Im a lazy ass when it comes to cardio, hence i lift weights. ( it burns more calories too). Now that i have to go slow on those heavy iron, interval yoga saved me. I have been making progress too. Believe me, i see results on my abs and thigh. Lost 2 cm of mythigh, 1 cm of my calf, 1 1/2 cm of my upper arm. So go on and do yoga, theres no mantra used in the yoga i perform. Just breathing technique :)

Life update: its my 2nd year marriage anniversary in 10mins. Ooohh we are going stronger day by day. And i love the hubster even more everyday. The best husband, father, bestfriend. I am truly blessed. Alhamdullilah thank you, allah. 

I also been doing some baking lately. Healthy and not so healthy baking goodies. Butter cake for dads bday, carrot cake with cream cheese frosting for fathers day, banana bread, banana oatmeal cookies to name a few. Will be baking marble cake this thursday for the kenduri doa selamat that my in laws is having. So excited, wheee :) hope it turns out well. 

And now, i shall go and wish my husband Happy Anniversary!

Till then. Xx


Friday, June 7, 2013

Crossfit June

woke up sore from top to toe. my back, fore arms, quad. but indeed the best feeling ever. 

i went all out on KB training since last week. i dont do cardio anymore cos those burpees and KB swings is already a cardio.

the best part about crossfit is that its only 20mins of workout and you really get the maximum effect. cos you push your body all out. i am now trying to master the hand stand push up ( HSPU). 

spend quite a bit this month for our ( my husband and I) kinda expensive hobby. whey protein and new KB. cant wait for them to arrive. wheee.

so, here's what going on my mind this week. why cant people understand that i am not on a losing weight journey anymore. it has already become my lifestyle to train and get stronger. i love working out, its a passion. i dont starve, i do eat. 6 times a day in fact. 

even my closest friend said that you are skinny, your fats are barely visible. well that makes me really sad, actually. so, i train even harder. yesterday was my rest day actually i was damn sore from the previous workout but i get so mad that some people just dont get the point that i train to get stronger. to lose my body fat. well its ok. not everyone will understand what ur goal is. the tiger never lose sleep to the opinion of a sheep,ey?

so yes, did a crazy workout right after. i felt so much better. and i ate hell a lot after that too. haha was so damn hungry.   had my protein shake w sweet potato and banana. then i got even hungrier, chow down on tuna, eggs and veggies. 2 hours after got hungry again, ate 1 green apple. then corn and the highlight, ramly burger and garrett's popcorn. oh yes i have sinned. lol cant help it. so freaking hungry. guess my metabolic rate went crazy yesterday. 

and i woke up today hungry. again! had my coffee rolled oats topped with choc sauce, pb and banana. ohh im so satisfied now. sipping my green tea as im ranting this out. 

on the other note, im very happy to be able to inspire people to live healthy and train. especially, my husband. he has been a great supporter. i even got him to wake up early to train. he's eating well too. cant wait for him to get back in shape. im so psyche to see his progress. and also to friends who has been supporting, you guys are awesome! 

to conclude, i would say strong is the new skinny.have a blessed friday everyone! xx


Wednesday, May 22, 2013

220513 Food Journal

Breakfast: 16 oz of water prior to waking up

Wholegrain toast ( no sugar) with Crunchy peanut butter ( no sugar) and 1 banana

Mid morning snack:

sweet potato chips ( cos i was baking it)

Lunch/ pre workout

Wholegrain wraps with lettuce, spinach, bell peppers, and cili padi tuna with side of my sweet potato chips

Post workout

ON Soy Protein( whey bloats me up)

Dinner

Steamed dory with ginger, oregano and thymes and side of carrots, brocs and bok choy. Sriracha to taste.

Then i had my all time favourite gong cha's green tea with herbal jelly and a bit of my hubs red bean.

Off to bed now, i shall dream of my breakfast. Yes i love breakfast so much that i go to sleep thinking about them and i wake up thinking about them!

Good night fitfam :) xx

Change for a better you.

If it doesnt challenge you, it doesnt change you.

Change or remain the same.

I seriously live by that quote now. I have been clean eating for a while now. You'll be able to see it on my Instagram feeds. I no longer try to damage my internal organs or attempt to clog my arteries. This is a no turning back journey.

Why i love clean eating? Because i actually felt more energized throughout the day, and no more lethargy. Yes, i always feel tired all day long even wheni do nothing. But by eating clean it has helped me overcome this problem and no more joint pains. Yay to that!

Its all in our mind. You have to focus and have a serious attitude toward this. I am telling you, just by eating clean, u will be able to see results. What to do for your first step to clean eating? Ditch that carbonated drinks will you. You musnt be drinking your calories, hun! Next, drink lots of water! Then, eliminate refined sugars, refined carbs ( all those white bread, white rice, white potatos) toss that away from ur diet. Lastly, stock up ur kitchen with lots of greens and fruits. When you crave for those candy, eat your fruits :) they sweet too and have vitamins thats good for your body!

Now, let me remind you, if you dont watch what you eat, you wont be seeing results. Have you heard the saying, ' 30% gym, 70% kitchen/nutrition, 100% mental'? Well its true, abs are made in the kitchen. Again, no diet, no abs baby :)

Go on and try eating clean. Remember, its all in ur mind. You can do this!




Monday, May 20, 2013

Kettlebell kind of sunday..

I did not workout on saturday. Had a very bad sore after leg day on Friday. No yoga too but i went for a walk in the park w the family.

Was still sore on sunday but determination kicked in, had my kettle bell workout for 30 minutes. Felt like i went to hell during clean and press. Haha but overall it was a good satisfying workout!


And here's adrian joining my workout. Yes, boy cant leave me alone. So i gotta juggle between my fitness routine and being a sahm.

And here's my lunch for today. Pantry and kitchen ran out of veggies n meat. So i whipped myself up a bowl of oatmeak. Since i had toast for breakfast. Well anyone can eat breakfast all day long, no?

Apple cinnamon oatmeal!


Now to put the boy for his nap and head for my HIIT cardio workout!




Saturday, May 18, 2013

endorphins? yay or nay?

today was supposed to be my rest day. my whole body is so sore. yesterday was leg day. day before was arms and back. and i didnt sleep well cos adrian woke up a few times last night.

but i'm feeling rather sad today. emotionally sad. contemplating whether i should take a day off or not 😢

endorphins always makes me happy. its the best anti-depressant anyways. maybe i should do some yoga to calm myself. i cant run, my legs are so sore from yesterday workout. which the only option is yoga. power yoga it is! 

hah don't under estimate yoga. its one crazy exercise! you'll be sweating buckets! and feel much better right after! 

p.s: i got a new reebok running shoes! totally in love with it. courtesy of the husband and my dad ✌loving the striking colours of the shoes! 


Friday, May 17, 2013

Never ever skip breakfast!

I was eating breakfast this morning, which reminds me how i used to skipped breakfast in order to lose weight. Yes, i was once a fool too. I will not eat in the morning and i will obviously eat obsessively in the afternoon. Which in the end leads to weight gain.

Here's why you should eat breakfast;

1) it speeds up your metabolism. This is because your body needs fuel after the sleeping for 8 hours, which means your blood sugar level will drop in the morning. Eat a good healthy breakfast will improve your metabolism

2) so you dont over eat in the afternoon. As i mentioned earlier, u gotta eat small and frequent meal.approximately 6 meals a day. Eat in small portion to keep your metabolism running.

3) helps maintain insulin response. When you dont eat, it will lead to hyper insulin response when you consume food later in the day. Meaning your level of insulin in your blood is higher than the glucose level which will or can lead to metabolic disorder. End results= fat accumulation!

4) starts your day happy. Dont u realize that if u skip meal u tend to be grumpy? Haha yes! So eat your breakfast! Healthy breakfast i must say. Feed yourself with good carbs and proteins to start the engine in the morning.

Here's my breakfast this morning.

Banana Cinnamon Oats

1/2 cup rolled oats
1/2 banana
2 tbsp almonds
1 tbsp ground cinnamon
Hot water

Mixed the rolled oats with hot water till the oats is soaked completely in the water. Then popped it in the microwave at HIGH for 2 minutes. Take it out, stir and put in your sliced banana in. Stir and popped it back in the microwave for 2 or 1 minutes.

Once its done, mixed your almonds in and sprinkle with cinnamon to taste! Total yums!

Excuse my ugly picture, i didnt have time to take nice pictures as Adrian is being a cry baby. It doesnt look nice but it is yummy!!!!



Its so easy to make that you cant have any excuse not to try! ;)

Thursday, May 16, 2013

FitMom? Yes!

As you know from my previous post, i was dragged into this healthy circle because of my husband. Yes originally he was the one that i called fitness junkie. He needs to hit the gym every single day. I called him a loser. My bad. I didnt know that it was actually an addiction. In a good way of cos :)

So.. After giving birth, i told myself, ' self, you can do this. You just need to focus!'. Post pregnancy was the start of my journey. I started of with running on the treadmill( my mil owns a treadmill at home so need not need to go out for gym, and i can still look after my baby). Be aware, i did this all at home. So, theres no excuse that u need a gym pass in order to get fit and healthy.

I incorporated weights into my workouts. Yes, ladies, weights! You wont lose weight or burn fat just by doing cardio. You need to lift to burn those fats. I have tried many workout and lifting burns more calories at rest, which is important. 

My workout previously consists of cardio, jillian's yoga meltdown and some of her other workouts. This are done on alternate day basis. I'll have my weightlifting day in between. You can start with light weight first not necessarily heavy ones. Saturday and Sunday is usually my rest day.

However, this has changed over a period of time, yeah your body stop burning fat when u do mundane exersices. You need to switch and spice things up. 

To date: i am doing kettle bell workout, tabata training workout and high intensity interval workout (hiit). And also my dumbbell workout.   

HIIT burns more calories than normal cardio at 1/2 the time u spend on normal cardio exersices. Tabata training is also a kind of HIIT, exersices are performed on 20 sec interval, 10 sec rest for 8 sets. Kettle bell... My love.. Thanks to the russian technology. Russian military uses kettlebell into their daily trainings. It looks like a bowling ball with handle, made with iron of cos. that kettlebell has left my arms sore for days. It is great as it gives overall effect to your body. Cardio + strength + flexibility. 3 in 1 i shall say :) interesting eh? You guys should give it a try. It works tremendously.

I got motivated cos im tired of people calling me fat. That im not normal than everyone else cos i was thick. My acquantaince used to make jokes about fat people and she turn around and look at me and say, sorry i didnt mean you! Thats pretty nasty eh? And im also tired of the mentality that once u become a mom you can never wear your pre pregnancy jeans cos your hips has expend and nithing you can do to save that.

Well darlings, i beat that statement. Im wearing us size 2 now, i was a size 6 before i got pregnant. I am no longer that fat girl people will laugh at, because the difference now is I'm not fat but i have fat. Each of those people motivated me in every single way. But my husband has been a real sweetheart, he is my biggest supporter. As you all know im a stay at home mom, i do not have monthly income, so my husband has been the sole provider for my fitness supplements, he is my dealer. Haha. Yes my husband sells fitness related supplements at a cheaper price that the market is selling. Waaayy cheaper. You can contact me if you are interested. Please do recommend to others too :) much appreciated.

Lastly, as you embark into this fitness journey, please remember that gym or workouts is only 30% the other 70% is faced in the kitchen. Dont waste your time busting your ass and end up eating crap, you wont be seeing results. Food is important. What you feed yourself is the key to everything. 

You need to eat as clean as possible in order to see results. I have mentioned about clean eating in one of my previous post. You should get the basis of it by now. Go slow on sugar, sodium, procesed food, carbonated drinks, refined sugar and anything artficial. The simple key, if your food can go bad, its good for you but if your food cant go bad, than its bad for your. For example your chips, biscuits etc. u should get the hint of bad food by now.

Eat clean during weekdays and have 1 day off. This is what we call cheat day. But make sure you dont turn your cheat day into cheat DAYS! You gotta have self control here. Manage your portion, eat every 3 hours. By eating 6 times a day you are actually speeding up your metabolism. As long as you are eating the good food! 

Now its time to stock up the kitchen with healthy food. Start slowly but surely. You can and you will. It is all in your mind! 

Here's a picture of me today, celebrating my post workout. Bicep burnout baby. Killed my arms and back today. It was crazy 1 hour workout but totally worth it. 


Gonna hit the sack, rest is much needed for muscles growth. Workout routines will be up next. 

Take care my fitlove :)








 


Wednesday, March 20, 2013

healthy vs skinny

i always wanted to be skinny for my whole life. i envy people that can rock a skinny jeans and cropped top. but this weight loss journey has taught me so much about getting in shape.

i saw a girl the other day, so skinny and yes she looks good in skinny jeans. and i told my husband omg she's so skinny. and my husbands answer just gave me the answer i've been looking for. he said yeah she's skinny but not healthy.

yeah i just love my husband. which is true u need fat. fat is good. theres a difference between you are fat and you have fat.

now that i've achieved my goal weight i no longer have to battle w that being being depressed cos i know everyone can rock any dress. the trick is live healthy. exercise is the key point.

for the past year i have been exercising everyday and even days that im supposed to rest i'll feel guilty for not sweating. yeah im an addict.

so my point is eat healthy, live healthy and u'll be fine! clean eating is difficult but once u tried u know its all worth it. swap ur ingredients to a healthy choice. white rice to brown rice, white bread to wholegrains. everything white is badddd. hahahha bad for your health. swap ur full cream milk to soy milk. drink as much green tea as u can. its filled w antioxidant and it increases ur body metabolism. pop some iron into ur exercise routine. they burn more calories at rest. skip that yogurt please, try greek yogurt. they do your body good.

ohh yeah, cut your sugar intake. thats the most important. i've always skipped sugar nowadays. even my funny mountain soya is without sugar. its delicious right? that soya. try ordering the ones without sugar and u'll realized that for all these year you are actually drinking the sugar. because the no sugar soya taste like hell. hahha and my husband just found out and he was upset.

i tried putting my husband into my healthy fitness regime. but i must say his willpower has decreases along the year. guess he's tired after working and he just want to indulge. but i did make sure that he doesnt go overboard. hence he still manage to maintain his weight with a little weight loss. he does sprinting now. which is damn good! do u know sprinting is way better than running? hahah u dont right? 20 minutes of sprinting in a week is enough to burn more calories that running for for the whole week. i read that somewhere. must be from one of the men's fitness mags.

so my journey continue to a healthier, fitter and toned me! hope everyone out there are willing to give it a try! and good luck ;)


Friday, March 15, 2013

let them grow.

i found adrian fell on his bum in the toilet today. and my toilet has water leakage coming from above. and the water was dropping on his head. haha it was so funny. he didnt cry but was just grumbling. lol i swear it was so funny!!!

earlier this morning as i was preparing his breakfast (oats mixed with banana and fresh milk topped with raw honey and ground cinnamon) . yeap he likes oats and thats pretty weird eh? my baby is one healthy baby. other than that, rice is a big NO NO!

so yeah, was whipping that up or him and this boy starts to ransacked my kitchen cabinet and i told him not to play with my glass jar. so he put that aside and play with my plastic tupperware, which i let him to. cos they are toddlers, learning toddlers. i let him play whatever he wants but theres things that i go, ' adriannn nooooooo!' hahahha. then i was about to prepare my breakfast pulak, i heard , ' paaaaangggg!'

no, no nothing happened to me. it was my glass jar that i hid from him earlier, he managed to get it down from the table and was trying to run away with it but it was so heavy and he dropped it. and pecah la glass jar mommy. mommy nak letak kuih raya macam mana ni adriannn. arghhh tension betul.

put him in his highchair while i clean the broken pieces of my precious glass jar. and he all hysterical cos this little boy has this obsession over broom and dustpan. i wonder why? adrian nak sgt tolong mommy sapu sampah eh?

all settled. its time for breakfast. today i fed him in his bumbo. so he ate the oats while i had my regular, wholegrain toast with pb topped with banana. then i left him to clean my porch ( he is still in his bumbo) and yeah he cant get out cos bumbo somehow locked him inside. u need an adult to pull u out or maybe cos peha anak mak dah gemok kot hahahah

usually he will get all worked up cos he nak ikut keluat but surprisingly today i hear no sound of crying. so i thought ohh baik nya anak mak tengok tv tak bising pun.

i went in and the boy gave me a big smile. im like ohhh so sweet my son. skali mak tengok, tumblr air dah kosong and sebelah tangan pegang lid, and lagi sebelah pegang the bottle. tengok kat tepi, air dah tumpah kena carpet and lantai.

ARRRGHHHH ADRIANNNNN!

hahahha nak marah tapi tak jadi sebab rasa cute sangat when he smile at me with that innocent face.

its just precios u know. that moment when u see them grow with all these behaviour. its nerve breaking but adorable. i treasure every moment i have with him!

i told my husband i rather not have frequent holidays and new expensive clothings/ handbags for me but i have the memories of my child when i grow old.

those are precious things that money cant buy. i love him too much that i think adrian is already overdosed with it hahaha hence the spoiling ( daddy said that)

my response? thats not spoiling thats love!

hahaha

i just want the best for my son. thats all. heheh tapi sometimes mommy overboard la kan. sometimes jerrrrr not always.

my husband always asked me ni sapa yang nak, mommy ke adrian? hahah my answer, adriannn laaaa. then hubs always asked and how do u know that? and i said, he came out from my vagina. we have some telepathic communication going on sometimes. hahahah my husband wen silent!

yay mommy always win!!

okie dokie time to go. till then, bloggie!

xx




Tuesday, March 5, 2013

you.

i kept thinking about the way how things spark up between me and my husband. those were the happiest moment in my life. loving him made me alive each day.

i used to be a crappy person. moody by the day and night but when i met him. everything seems so flowery and i felt like i was in cloud nine. thats the feeling u get when u are in love i guess.

the thing i love most about him is how our brain have the same wavelength. we practically always say the same thing, same word at the same time. they say its jinx but that what i love about us. our brain just clicked. and till today we still do that, let it be in real life or types out.

thats why we are bestfriends to start off. and by all means im glad that it got deeper between us cos i cant see any other person to be my better half.

and i will always remember your efforts and dedication u put in during our courting period. and baby, thats the happiest period ever. because you gave me hope and u made it a reality.

i have lots of stories to tell adrian about his awesome dad when he's older. about how fantastic u are as a man and i pray that he will turn out just like his dad.

u are my bestfriend, my colleague, my partner, my lover, my boyfriend, my fiance, my husband and now u are the father of my child. and u have been an amazing dad to adrian and a fantastic husband to me.

thank you, my love, my heart. i hope our love blossom everyday and that u wouldn't get bored looking at me as i aged and we will grow old together and laugh at our gray hair.

i love you, my arief! forever and always. my heart belongs to u and only u! our love is eternal!

xx

Your Mimi.




Tuesday, February 26, 2013

breathtaking..

simply beautiful and breathtaking. come, adrian lets go wheee :) haha



Sunday, February 24, 2013

whats on my mind?

february is gonna end soon. how time flies. sigh.

so, i tried new exercise this week.pilates. and oh my god, it really works on my core. love it. ahh and i so need to practice more on my ball stability. i suck :( hubs has better core muscles than me. its depressing.

been slacking on my diet though. feels like killing myself for having those cravings. fuck the hormone pills.

adrian on the other hand has done so many milestones and hell yeah im so effin proud of him. but i gotta need more patience in dealing with his distress tantrums. which i reckon im getting better at it. yeah im hormonal and short tempered.

and he is still co-sleeping w me. pushed me around every night. but mommy still loves u to bits, adrian. i'll move u to ur toddler bed when u're ready, ya?

talking about him, the boy just woke up for his midnight feeding. gosh yes, up untill today we still havent got a full night slumber. there's maybe 1/10 nights that he slept through the night. pity my husband though, cos it his task to make the milk at night. argh thats why he's my man :) im just so blessed to have sucha helpful husband.

ok mommy's sleepy. till we meet again bloggie. xx

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Check Up

here comes that moment where i dread again. check ups and bills. gonna have to visit the Ob-Gyn next week. and still havent pick my hospital. KPJ or Pantai?

If i was in KL, this would be a problem cos i already have my Gynae. and my mom is no longer alive and i didnt know which gynae she went to last time. have been asking around and they say that Dr Min Min in Pantai is really good. But i have been a very loyal patient of KPJ.

Maybe its time to change, eh?

This reminds me that Adrian's PCV jab is due. Another horror. Another sleepless nights. I seriously hate jabs. Why do they have to suffer the babies. Poor babies.


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bloody hell for the love of god. dear eyes, will you please just shut and go to sleep.

guess im having that guilt of not working out today. yeah im that weird. i get obsessive when im into something. will u please just kill me now for my exaggeration!

anyhow, this post is for me to note that MY BOY TOOK HIS BABY STEP TODAY (110113) at about 10pm. yeah im forgetful like that, should have jot it down in the previous post.

my brain just fail me after delivery. making me depressed every time i cant find my stuffs. its just plain annoying i tell u.

ok i should really throw my iphone aside. its taking a toll on me. or maybe i should rant more? yay? nay?

ok. NAY! im going to bed. son gonna wake up soon and im gonna be so cranky tomorrow, adrian's not gonna like it!

sometimes i just love talking to myself here hahaha cos nobody reads my blog muahahahah

GOOD NIGHT IPOH! xx

Friday, January 11, 2013

Night rants

got tickets for MLM tonight but for the love of Adrian we sacrifice it. and also hubs and i are not fond of such events.

so its just me, hubs and adrian :) happy life indeed. sadly, big daddy is down with flu. he slept early and adrian is as usual sleeps at 10pm. they left me alone wondering the night away.

which made me think of a conversation i had with a friend earlier today. family planning. she thinks that its good to have small gaps between sibling. like a year gap. whereby i think the least should be 3 years. while she agrees with me along the way but there are sentences that came out from her that says she doesnt agree with me.

well, of course i have my reasons. first of all, i wanna be able to spend as much time with my first born and to be able to see him grow for the first one year and to participate along with him. i know if i were to get pregnant too fast. i would be tired and i cant be able to spend as much time as i did now.

secondly, i want to make sure that adrian is well inform on the situation of having another sibling. i need to make sure that he understands the term of having a little bro/ sis. this can only be done when he is older than 1 year of cos.then he can become a good example to the little ones.

third, it all comes back to cost. we need time to breath. re-calculate our financial situation and babies do cost a lot.

there are other reasons but these are the main points. i dont know about others but i surely thinks my uterus needs a break too.

that is just my point of view. others may vary,no?

for now i shall just enjoy my time with adrian. there's no need to judge or compare, ay? every family has their own definition on family planning. i shall stick to mine :)

above all, if god were to give me another baby. i would be glad. i can only plan my future. its up to him to make it a reality. as they all say, i can only plan, but it would never have happened without the divine intervention ;)

and everday i thank god that im blessed with such a adorable, cute, smart little boy. he now completes me. i have never been happier.

thank you Allah for your blessings.


Monday, January 7, 2013

20kgs off the body..

As you all know, when i was carrying Adrian, i was 85kg. As soon as i delivered him, i shed 10kg ( water,blood,the baby etc). i was stucked at 75kg for almost 3 months when i finally managed to go down to 71kg. Then, the number on scale never moved. despite my dieting and exercising. ( was running on treadmill at this point and cutting off half of my rice portion)

then came Ramadhan 2011, that i told myself, i need to do something to lose this baby fat. i vowed to stop eating rice. LOL. well it worked. for the whole month with no rice, no junk food, no sugary drinks with only house chores. i shed 10kg. Yes believe it or not. i was 61kg during raya. Motivated by the weight loss. i started exercising. Jillian Michaels workouts, Jeannette Jenkins. You can find their DVDs in Speedy. IT WORKED. I am now 55kg and still counting :)

Training is just 30%. Food is 70% my friends. Dont waste your hardwork on bad food. and as u workout, do take supplements. I have taken Hydroxycut Hardcore( during gym days, way before Adrian. Yeap i've started long ago but never really focus into it), Hydroxycut Advance, Whey Protein, and my current obsession, L-Carnitine ( getting this next week).

However, the best supplements is still your will power ;)

Just calculated my fat percentage 2 days ago and its 22.4% (fitness level) this has make me even more motivated to continue cos i know its working. It takes weeks even months for you to see the results but when u do, it totally paid off.

and please, focus on fat loss instead of weight loss. the number on the scale means nothing. I'm not an expert but go on and google the difference.

Usually this will be my workout time while adrian is asleep but today im so fucking sore from the exercise i did 2 days ago. Maybe tonight.

gotta go now, little boy woke up and giving me a stare. Lol

p.s: oh btw im selling the supplements with cheaper price than GNC. WAY CHEAPER than GNC. Let me know if you're interested.

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Hello January :)

Its January 2013. ahh how time flies. adrian has grown so much since the last time i posted here. little boy is 1 year 1 month already.

To sum up my 2012. It has been a very emotional year for me. but i managed to get back up and face it. became a mom, wife, daughter in law. well thats not easy especially if it involves daily politics.

anyways, we just got back from Singapore for our year end trip. Traveling is so difficult with kids. Messy i mean but in the same time exciting. But adrian is too little to appreciate all these. Had a super great time with hubs and Adrian. the downside, is that lil boy caught up with a very high fever on our last day there.

even after we came back to Ipoh fever was still there. 3 times of visit to specialist clinics, he finally got better and now gotta deal with the rashes called roseola. it happens when the fever go away abruptly.

Not a good start for twentythirteen.

but other than that, life's been good. Planning for a surprise trip for hubs 27th birthday. This time is all about sand and beach :)

I really wanna visit Bali again but hubs says its a third world country, not safe to travel with babies. Aye, aye Captain. whatever you say.

ok next post will be about my weight loss and fat loss challenge ;)
( its free time today, Adrian being an angel taking his nap hehehe)

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

Its a wrap,2012!

one year has passed by. twentytwelve has thought me a lot about responsibilities, priorities, family, and love. i learnt to grow up and stand on my own feet in just one year. that, im proud of myself. all thanks to my ever supportive, loving, caring and patience husband. without him i wouldnt achieve all that.

decided to wrap twentytwelve in our neighboring country, singapore. all i can tell is that, its good to travel to the first world country but it will also cost a hole in your wallet ;)

the experience was fun. adrian was such an angel through out the trip. too good that he got sick cos he was too tired i guess. pity mommy's lil handsome boy.

next trip, will be a longer trip, adrian. surprise! lol this is just to warm u up with the immigration,airplanes and stuff. haha

mommy and daddy will wait until you are big enough to enjoy the trip. then we'll travel around the world.

just us 3!

p.s: pics are in my instagram (@mimizainal)