SLEEPY

one word : SLEEPY!

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At last...

yes! finally!


The wedding album was delivered to us on Monday. Apparently he has lots of other job, which i think is bollocks.

Anyways, today will be my second last day at work. which means i am officially unemployed starting on Monday. hehe anyone wants to employ me let me know. haha.

I AM SO HAPPY I CAN DIEEEE!!!

I shall have all the time in the world to start decorating the house, the room. :)

You gotta wake up, darling

So, Hi, I'm back :) Sorry for the looooong hiatus. i wasn't in the mood of writing nor expressing myself. i was having a good time curling in the comfort of my own duvet.

let me just summarized it by listing down on the things that happened during my hiatus.

1. got into a major fight with Arief
2. REALLY MAJOR fight
3. got MARRIED
4. RESIGN from my current work
5. had a fight with almost everybody in the family ( dont ask im on this roadtrip to earth alone actually since born ;)
6. deferred my studies.
7. RUNAWAY

LOL seriously i was just joking at point no. 7. Practically i just stop my life, i just wanted to unwind and relax, i cant take this hustle and bustle of KL city life anymore. Sick of it, tired of it. People wont understand. Nobody will.

i lied. there's more to that list, but i'll skip :)

Sometimes i think i dont have all the guts to do all of the above, because i was so scared of what people would say and think. but seriously now, to hell with it.


P/S: yeah I'm a married woman now :) Call me Mrs. Mimi.

Blood is thicker than water

I still remember what my mother used to tell me when she's alive, ' Blood is always thicker than water'. We used to ask her, 'Mak, awat mak selalu baik sgt dengan mak su and mama tu even went they treat you like doormat?' and her answer would be, ' air kalau dicincang takkan putus, sama la macam darah'

oh yes, my mother and her perumpamaan. haha. we will always criticize her, 'Mak ni tak habih2 dengan peribahasa' haha. I miss those times when I always fight with her. Everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

but i believe, my mother has taught me everything about life before she passed away. She taught us how to live this life eventhough we didnt realize it. Like i said, my sisters was being a pain to me during my engagement day and they still havent talk to me. and knowing my family its always the little ones has to initiate conversation with the elder ones or to be more precise say sorry to the elder ones even if its not your fault.

its just how MY family works. Funny eh? But i have been living with them for 23 years now, i know what type of person they are. and now, my elder sister came to me asking for advise about her marriage. weird huh? a 38 years old asking an advice from a 23 years old sister. :) see, like mak says, ' air kalau dicincang takkan putus'

you can curse me, call me names, ignore me but in the end, the ones you betrayed are the ones that stayed on with you through the tough times. Family always does. Friends may not be there, but family will always stand strong by your side.

i guess my sister has learnt her lesson :)

but i pity her though. having a husband that doesnt appreciate all the things that she has been doing for him. She has dedicated her whole life for him and yet now everything went down the drain. just in a split second because of jealousy. How sad. 10 years of relationship and marriage.

May god bless you and show you the correct way to deal with this misery.

Just to let you know, the family is always there :) Stay strong!

♥

insecurities in me

I’m sorry sometimes I get a little jealous, thinking that someone else could make you happier than I could. I guess it’s my insecurities acting up. because I know that I’m not the prettiest, smartest or most fun and exciting girl. but I know that no matter how hard and long you look, you’ll never find somebody that loves you like I do.

Speedzone Tour 2011

Speedzone Tour - The Official Grand Prix Party is back baby! This year the fast paced heart beating event will be held outdoor at  Go-Kart Circuit at Sepang International Circuit on Saturday April 9th 2011.

This year Speedzone will be bringing Eddie Halliwell, Sander Klainenberg, Darren Emerson and Seb Fontaine. Our Malaysian DJs who will be kicking the electronic music along is Terence C, Ian Ross and Phil K.Lee.

Last year, it was held in Genting Highlands. I was there to experience the state of trance.Wouldn't wanna miss the chance this year.

Lets all join the fun, go to www.speedzonetour.com.my for more info and www.airasiaredtix.com for tickets.

Smell me.

If you noticed, I have not bought any of my hantarans yet because I was waiting for this big sales that is happening in June. I blogged about the Mega Sale here. ( When to shop for hantarans)

But anyhow, yesterday night after bringing my babyarief to the clinic. Well, he suffered from sinusitis. Poor little baby. Can't even drive or see the lights. Doctor said, he'll tackle the flu and fever first and see whats the results. To take extra pre-caution, we decided to head to Tesco Mutiara Damansara to have his eye checked. To our surprised, the power did increase from 6.50 to 7.75. Thats a hike there right? But the optometrist said the machine is only 70% accurate. So we ditched the place. Haha plus he was not in the mood of selling his spectacles. He's busy cleaning up the spectales rather than entertain us. So, bye bye Focus Point. I'll go somewhere else.

Head to The Curve just to past our time, since babyarief has to meet his friend later. Walk through the concourse and I saw Bvlgari having some promotion. I was eyeing on the free gift bag from Bvlgari not the perfume actually, The bag caught my eye. HAHA. The part-timers was convincing to get one, and i was like ' Eww tak nak, tak sedapp!", then i said, ' I nak perfume yang lagi satu tu, tapi i nak free gift yang ni.' But sadly its a Principal pack where i have to purchase Bvlgari Aqva Pour Homme Marine. Which is not babyarief's type of smell ( this perfume is fro man only). We walk away like we always did. haha.


Seriously, I am very particular when it comes to perfumes. I can smell for over hundred time and yet end up not buying anything. My perfume all this while has been Salvatore Ferragamo, Estee Lauder and my favourite Gucci Flora and Guilty.

I was thinking of getting Gucci again for my hantaran but then again it'll be boring for me because I had Gucci Guilty for my Birthday last year from babyarief. Boring aint it to have the same perfume again. Went for a few rounds and we end up in Metrojaya perfume department again.

This time we meet, Arca the very convincing sales person. She's the leader of the two part-timers we met earlier. Make a deal with her that if we buy two perfumes from her she's gonna give the Bvlgari tote bag when there's an extra set of it. Yeay! She took down my phone number and I'm gonna go there every week to check on the bag. LOL. I'll post the pic for you all to see :)

Aaannnddd we end up buying Bvlgari Man 100 ml comes with shampoo and a toilletries bag for baby arief and i get myself Bvlgari Omnia Green Jade 65 ml with clutch bag.

Bvlgari Man 100 ml

Bvlgari Omnia Green Jade 65 ml

Bvlgari Aqva Pour Homme Marine with travel bag

Take note: When you shop for perfume make sure you ask them for coffee beans to clear your senses. After smelling so many perfume you cant differentiate the difference anymore so use the coffee beans.

Dont follow what the salesperson says. They might not be always right, you know yourself better, you know what kind of smell you like.

For me, like something sweet and sexy ;)  The smell of attraction!

In the ♥ of Kuala Lumpur

Trust me, Pre- wedding photo shooting is one hell of a tiring shoot. From morning to night. But baby and I definitely enjoy it :) Plus, babyfiance has stiff body due to bodybuilding. All the picture he took makes him looked fake. LOL So, me and Khairil ( our photographer) keep making fun of him. it was hilarious.Funny shit.

The photoshooting was done in the hearts of KL since babyfiance wanted and urban theme for the pre-wedding shoot.

We start from Masjid Jamek - Masjid India - Petaling Street - Pasar Seni - Bukit Bintang. LOL So KL riigghtt? haha. I enjoyed every second of it. It was meaningful to me :)

I'll let the pictures speak for itself.

Masjid India

Opposite DBKL

Opposite HSBC

Petaling Street

Pasar Seni

Bukit Bintang

I had so much fun. We all did! Thank you Khairil Khairuddin for taking our pre wedding pictures.

If you are wondering who Khairil is. He is babyarief childhood friend who has been crazy over photography. He needed us to bloom his career in this line, and we needed him :) its a win-win situation aint it? But anyway, we thank him for the effort, you did good!

Note to self: Never ever wear heels if you are doing urban! My feet is swollen so big right now. I can barely step foot on the floor. FML. Kill me for wearing those heels!

Make sure you are in the most comfortable outfit, shoes/sandals or you'll suffer like me. I learn my lesson!

Save Mother Earth

I was shocked to hear about Myanmar earthquakes yesterday night. It has destruct Myanmar with 7.0 on the richter scale. Having Thailand and Laos to get affected.

Japan haven't even recover yet and now another massive earthquake. What is happening to the world? Is it coming to an end?

We are all helpless when the mother nature roared with the Tsunami. Is it a signthat we should repent?

I reckon we should do something in showing our effort in helping the mother earth. Its EARTH DAY tomorrow.26th March 2011 @ 8.30 pm. We shall all unite and keep the lights off for one hour in order help the mother nature who has been very angry lately.




Show you support by putting this banner in your blog or website. Get it here.


Tell your friends via social media, blogs or website. The reason why people don't do it is because we forget. So darlings, do your job as a human being on earth. Spread the word!

I shall blog about my Earth Hour day next week :)

Its candle time!

Coffee and Love are best when they are hot

Do you get married to someone because you like the status of being 'married'? or because you think its cool because you eliminate the religion barrier between you both? or maybe you get married because you feel its a trend?

Ask yourself.

if you were to answer any of the above, my advice, forget it and live your life to the fullest before you embark this journey of marriage. Marriage was never easy, never is. The marriage of  the elderly that we benchmark ourselves to, might be a whole drama. No parents will ever tell their kids about the problem they having between them. They protect it so bad like they protected us. Why? because no parents wanna see their kids sob over their failed marriage. Some pretend for years, some when for counselling and some bail on each other and file a divorce. Love is only beautiful when its hot and boiling. You BBM even when he's just next to you, tweet with him even when he's just in the next room, beautiful aint it? Romantic so it seems.

But have you ever imagined when you gotta live with this man who farts around the house,who pick his nose infront of the tv, who never put the toilet seats up for THE REST OF YOUR LIFE? Everyday of your life. Its all about him and IF you are lucky, he'll be all about you. By knowing men, do you think its all about you after he has gotten you as his wifey? But if you are LUCKY for the second time, he'll appreciate you, I'm sure.

When the issue of ' I'm too young to get married' came up. I tell myself, well, I have witnessed 4 marriages infront of me. They have their good times and they have their worst. Its how you nuture the roots. If from the beginning you are not putting your 100% effort in it, no marriage can ever survive.

I believe we gotta be mentally strong to embark on this new journey called, " BEING A WIFE". You gotta know who your husband is. You gotta make sure that YOU, yourself is ready. It will all come back to you. THINK WISELY. Don't ever regret it one day and say, ' I WISH I DIDNT MARRY YOU'.

Its your choice, darlings. Pick what you want. Nobody is ever gonna force you to get married. Its your call. You believe that the marriage you are building is pure and the love you are having with him is not some puppy love. Then go ahead with it. BUT if ever you felt uneasy about it. LET IT GO.

You dont wanna be a widow at the age of 23, arent you?

I was once in doubt about my marriage too. I questioned myself more than a million times. Again and again and again. Is this the right choice. Everyone will go throught this part of life. Its normal. When it happened dont freak out and because you will scare the groom-to-be away haha. Take a deep breath and think rationally.

I'm talking by experience, God i freaked out i went berserk. HAHA. You gotta chill, young lady. No conclusion can be made when you are filled with emotions. At this moment, all your maturity will shows. But its not, then you are better being single or in a relationship!

How bout you? I'm sure you have thought about it a million times just like me :)

May God bless our marriage in the future than. Amen!

Someday is 7 months from now

SOMEDAY

i remember posting this like a year ago in tumblr.

and

TODAY

I'm engaged :)

I'm one happy fat kid because I have you by my side!

xx

Fuck me and Marry me young

Pic from Tumblr

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control. 

Though when i was making the decision to take the friendship to a serious level, i had my doubts againts you. But when you took the guitar and played this song.

 

It went straight to my heart and you touched my soul. At that moment, you have taken my heart with you. Along the first few months, when we had to go on as a couple discreetly, my heart breaks. I want the world to know about you, because you are the most precious thing God has given me.

We had our ups and downs, you are still there, you keep your faith strong, you foughts againts all the consequences that came with this relationship.

We made it through, Baby.

I lost few friendship to be with you, but never once i regretted all that. To me, you are the friend, the bestfriend, the brother, the lover, and the soulmate. You came in a package. I believe, God has granted my wish. 

"Dear God, I have gone through so much in life. At least give me a person that is able to make me happy and will never hurt me"

That was my wish, and i met you. I became your friend. and falling in love with you was beyond my control.

I guess, 

LOVE HAPPENS WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT.

My Lover, My Baby, My Heartbeat,

Marry me and take me away from this cruel life of mine.

You, Me and Her.

The hardest thing is when your boyfriend has a female best friend. You seem clingy, but in reality you're just afraid that he'll love her more than he loves you. You seem bitchy, but in reality you're hurt that another girl sometimes seems more important to him than you are. You always seem unreasonable, but in reality you're just trying to hang on to the most important person in your life.

Karma is never nice.

Just caused you are elder than me and I'm so called the youngest, I can be told that I'm being emotional. But when it comes to you being emotional, you dont fucking realize that. How is that fair?

you preach about you are not affected by anyone or anything. you are very logical. I guess you are not. You throw tantrums too. We all have emotions! There's no difference between me or you. You judged me, and i let that be. Because I thought and I assume, you were the only one i can count on after my mother.

I was wrong. You were just the same. You dont bother what happened to me. You dont care. You deceived me in believing you are one. You dissapoint me. For all these time, all of you have been saying that I am a dissapointment, well i guess this time, screw you. You are a MAJOR dissapointment because you told everyone you were so much better than anyone out there.

Hello darling, strangers out there is definitely more sincere than you are. Whatever happened during my engagement is not something i can forget. You guys failed to make me a happy little girl.

I'm not coming back. November 11,2011 will be last event with all of you. You all broke my heart. I still cry till today. For everything that happened, i wish that doesn't happened to your kids. If you are lucky, you'll be alive and witness all of your kids getting engaged and happily married. But if dont have the chance, I pray to God that they will NEVER experience what i did.

Karma is a bitch. Haven't you guys heard of that? I bet you have a taste of it already but you take for granted. But its ok. One day, when its slap itself right on the face, you'll be sorry about it. I know now you dont, because you are too proud of yourself.

November 11, 2011 will mark the date where I shall cut every ties. That I promise you.

Rainy Wednesday

Hello you. Sorry for being on hiatus. I wasnt really THAT busy but i wasnt in the mood write. I swear I was at this page yesterday. Every letter typed out was back spaced again and again and again. Guess i wasn't in the after all.

Its a rainy gloomy wednesday today. * wow that rhymes haha* so i decided to write something mellow. haha. you probably think, when is it that im not mellow in my blog post. WELL, today I'm gonna be extra mellow. hehe.

Nothing was ever perfect in my life. No, seriously. NOTHING. You might see that I'm happy, I smile, my status is all lovey dovey. Well, yes i am happy NOW. because I'M IN LOVE. Haven't you notice that? My status was all about him when I'm happy. Except certain statuses where we're not in good terms. but hey, couple fights ok. thats fucking normal. Anyhow, sometimes i find we are weird. We dont fight nowadays. Is that normal? i hope so :) *pray hard to God*

So, Arief Farhan, just in case you're reading this. * i know you dont read my blog haha*

this is for you.

Every night when our fingers intertwine before we sleep, I felt security. There was a sense of belonging in between. The warmth of your body tuck me in a deep sleep everyday. There is not a day that i fall asleep not praying for you to live longer than me. This is selfish. but if I were to live longer than you, I don't think I'll survive this nasty life. Apart from God, you are my motivation. 

People around us can say whatever they want but I believe I know you more than them. They can assume that they know everything. and I'm on a challenge to change that :)

i know you can do better. you just gotta believe in yourself.

and I, dedicate this song to you, my love. Because i know you are worth it ;)

The Proper Checklist

1. Dates

• Nikah            : Confirmed
• Reception 1   : Confirmed
• Reception 2   : Confirmed

     2.   Kursus Kahwin & Legal Docs

• Kursus Kahwin : Done
• HIV test            : 11/8/2011
• Borang              : 11/8/ 2011

     3.  Venue

• Nikah            : Confirmed
• Reception 1   : Booked
• Reception 2   : Booked

     4.  Catering & Canopy

• Ipoh   : TBC
• KL     : TBC

     5.  Pelamin & Deco

• Ipoh : Done
• KL  : Done

     6.  Photographer

• Ipoh : Done
• KL : Done

     7.  Videographer

•  Ipoh : Done
• KL   : Done

     8. Wedding Outfit

• Nikah           : Pending
• Reception 1  : Pending
• Reception 2  : To check dates for appointment with designer

     9. Make up

• Nikah          : Pending
• Reception 1 : Done
• Reception 2 : Pending

     10. Favors

• Reception 1 : To buy things for the gifts
• Reception 2 : TBC

     11. Bunga Pahar

• Reception 2 : Pending

     12. Hantaran

• For Him : Pending
• For Her  : Pending

     13. Rings

• His   : Pending
• Hers :  Pending

      14. Invitation Card

• Ours : Pending

      15. Cake

• KL : Quote received. To finalized design.

      16. Tok kadi

• Ipoh : Pending

      17. Handbouquet

• Nikah           : Done
• Reception 1  :Done
• Reception 2  : Done

      18. Guestlist

• Nikah           : Papa to come back on this
• Reception 1  : To discuss with Arief

      19. Ceremony Entertainment & Kompang

• Reception 1
  
  • CD of Favourite songs : To find songs. Arief to help :)
  • Slideshow                   : TBC
• Reception 2                          : TBC

      20.  Bridesmaid

• Ipoh : Done
• KL   : Done

      21.  Wedding heels

• Nikah            : Pending
• Reception 1   : Pending
• Reception 2   : Pending

      22.  Event itinerary

• Reception 1  : Pending
• Reception 2  : Pending

      23.  Wedding props

• Reception 1  : Pending

      24.  Spa treatment

• A week before Nikah : Pending

     25.  Honeymoon plans

• Right after wedding  : Pending

Signed,

Mimi

Preview ;)

Took my photoalbum from the photographer yesterday. So happy * dance around the house*

the picture is just a preview ;) i'll update more during the weekends!

*blow kissess*

Lips are sealed

That feeling where you have so much to say, to let out but you just can't because you're scared things will come out a different way which will just screw everything up and plus you feel like NO ONE understands you.

The checklist

 Last week, my heart was beating so fast, i became short tempered. i get annoyed easily. for once i thought i was gonna die, because all i do was sleep in my free time. i guess thats how my mind and body respond to stress.

Like any other day, weekdays is a bitch to me. Just in case u haven't heard me saying this, i'll say it again. I HATE MY JOB. thankyou.

Then i commented on a friend facebook status, 'guten morgen, lovers' which mean good morning lovers. i happened to tell her about my bitchy weekdays and she said, ' well, we all do, but demi sesuap nasi, suffer je la kan.' well, she's right anyway. put it like this, i need this salary to save for my wedding. to make it a beautiful one even if its not expensive :) well everybody dream wedding will cost millions. Unless you are as lucky as Marion Caunter lah kan.

anyway, i found this check list and decided to have it on my blog as well. i hope it will get me organized.

1. nikah, sanding & bertandang date
- confirmed

2. kursus kahwin & legal docs
- kursus completed 23/1
- hiv test done - 3 months before 11/11
- borang - 3 months before 11/11
3. venue
- nikah : Ipoh house (mimi)
- reception: booked. balance 80%

- bertandang : booked

4. catering & canopy
- KL: to have food tasting and to reconfirm usage of canopy.
- Ipoh: booked

5. pelamin & decor
- IPOH : DONE. to pay deposit
-KL: Pending

6. photographer
- nikah & reception : DONE
- bertandang : DONE
- pre/post-wedding : DONE

7. videographer
- nikah & sanding : pending
- bertandang : pending

8. wedding outfit
- nikah : pending
- sanding : pending
- bertandang : pending

9. makeup
- nikah : pending 
- sanding : DONE - to pay deposit to block dates
- bertandang : pending

10. favors
- nikah : pending
- sanding : pending
- bertandang : pending

11. bunga pahar
-- bertandang : pending

12. hantaran
- for him : pending
- for her : pending

13. rings
- his : pending
- hers : pending

14. invitation card
-pending

15. cake
- KL : pending

16. tok kadi
- pending

17. handbouquet
- nikah: DONE
- sanding : pending 
- bertandang : DONE

18. guest list
- pending

19. ceremony, entertainment & kompang
-KL : pending
- bertandang : pending
- cd of favourite songs : tentative list dah ada. to rearrange the sequence
- kompang & selawat : TBC
- slideshow for bertandang : concept dah ada. not started, arief will help =)

20. pengapit
- sanding : 

- bertandang :
- bff dresses for bertandang :

21. dresses for family
- KL : pending
- Ipoh : pending

22. wedding heels
- nikah & sanding & bertandang : pending

23. event itinerary
- pending- bertandang rehearsal : (to check with hall admin & timing)
- bertandang coordinator :

24. wedding props

- pending

25. spa treatment
- pending

26. honeymoon plan
- MATTA FAIR here i come :)

OKAAYYY i have like HELL lots of work to get done by myself but hey life goes on. i gonna live my life with the man of choice so be happy, Mimi :)

cheers! 

The Ghost of the Ex.

My ex? NOPE! Im done with all my exes. They are definitely HISTORY now. and im glad they are history because i love my present :)

so yesterday i tweeted, "Dear Allah, tonight I don't want to dream abt the past. Let me dream of the present and future. Thank you. Faithfully, Mimi."

the ghost of your ex is haunting me baby. god knows for what reason. maybe i felt insecure. maybe because all the things she said. and i dont like the past. you have thought me to let go, and so i did. but subconsciously, i didnt let go.


please please Allah. Im on my bended knees, please let me let this go or ill never feel happpiness again.


Love,
Mimi

I have died and gone to Heaven :)

relationship and friendship. both is vital to life. u need either one to survive this horrible life.

i wanna thank my baby for all the things he have done. Thank you for just being there and sometimes you u dont even say a word when im sad, because u understand. you know what i want. you witness every tears, every laugh, every smile that i let out. and im happy that i can share all that with a person as incredible as you. you were there, eventhough when i have my ridiculous mood swings. you stayed and you didnt bail on me. among everybody i have met. you stayed the longest in terms of patience. THANK YOU, BABY ARIEF :)

so, i have a beautiful relationship. what more can i ask for? friendship of course. well i have friends, but my friends are not the one that would take a bullet for me. its more like, hey we're friends WITH benefit. to me, why be friends, when you wanna be jealous of me, you were never happy of what i have. thats not friend. i rather not have you at all. seriously. im looking for a sincere friendship, if there is ever a sec that you feel like you hate me, go away. dont be my friend. i dont wanna get hurt anymore.

but for now, im content with the amount of friends i have. i dont have a whole bus. but i have a few 'take a bullet for you' friend :)

I'm happy with my life. I have Arief, i have my girlfriends. Im complete :)

When to shop for Hantaran?

I was on YM with my beloved YM partner, Ainee Joe today. I asked her when is she coming to KL and she said when there is sales. and she asked me when is that. i confidently said MARCH! haha MALU!

no its not march, peeps!

Malaysian Mega Sale Carnival 2011 will be held on 15th June 2011 to 31st August 2011. So, darlings, save up! Spend your heart out ;)

I'm gonna save for my hantarans :)

list of item in my wishlist for hantarans for Arief ( i have a wishlist for him, can u believe that? HAHA)

1. Mossimo Dutti shirts, pants
2. Perfume( eau de parfum ok! no toilet!)
3. DSLR camera
4. PS 3

Ok thats all i can think of since Mr Fiance is bugging my life to drag me to the gym. Doesnt he knows that i get so much weaker everything i step foot in the gym? grrr!

bye babies! mwahh!

What's Next ?

HELLO PEEPOS :)

Okay engagement, done. whats next? Wedding of course ;) OMG so ex-fucking-cited! weeee :)))

Few weeks before my engagements, we were having problems with my reception venue. but the its all settled now :)

WHERE? .... 


TAADDAAA


BUKIT KIARA EQUESTARIAN AND COUNTRY RESORT!

hahaha siap promote kan? anyway im having a garden wedding by the poolside. so it should look like this.

so now, the add on budget is the freaking canopy. kenapalah malaysia ni punya weather unpredictable! which is RM450 per canopy and of course la my canopy nak yang arabian pastu ada LED light. haha yes very over the top like baby would always say. but hey im only getting married to you once, Arief Farhan Rahim! i deserve the right to be picky!

My doorgifts is done! Literally. Dah dapat idea. maybe i can ask Ainee's fiance to help me with some drawings :D

next, my venue for akad nikah is done. YEAY! i kahwin dekat IPOH! my hometown! woohoo! Arief said my dad can close a mosque for us. HAHA. gila hebat kan boyfriend i? opps tunang lah! i keep forgetting that he's my lawfully binded fiance. hehe!

Lagi? i nak pakai burung dekat kepala. okay~ not exactly a bird. but bird lah. Like SJP wore in Sex and the City. Dont have the idea of it? Here it is :)

isnt this breathtaking?

OH YES! WEDDING DECORATOR! Spoke to Arjuna Cipta. Grrr harga mahal gila. Seriously sometimes when i look at his quotation, i rasa macam ridiculous. anyway, trying to talk him through my budget. i just love their artwork. i want them! i want them!

what else? Boutonnieres, tablescape, bouquet. soo many things to do.  

FUTURE MOTHER IN LAW CAN YOU HELP ME, PLEASE :(

ish tak malu mintak tolong orang! haha

See ya soon lovers.

toodles!

So long 'Single' !

HELLO DARLINGS! IM ENGAGED TO ARIEF FARHAN RAHIM!

yes im excited. very! its like a achieve some diploma in life. HAHA!

friends came and make my day. and i love them. family? lets not go there. Baby said, we have better things ahead now. Which is true. why sob about things and people that will pull you down no matter what. Life's good with fiance :D

so, i didnt get the pictures from my photographer yet but i managed to get few pictures of me from my makeup artist and my dear friends.

let me tell you about my make up artist, she's so awesome and nice and the make up is beautiful. her name is KAK SADAR. her price is not bad. RM 250 make up and hair do. so if you need to hire her please visit her website here.

   

i wanted my hair to be like this.

but it became this instead. i think its pretty though :)

 OMG I STILL CANT BELIEVE IM ENGAGED!

You and me, eternally!

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I'll keep you in my prayers.

Engagement is tomorrow. Freaking out. Nervous. Excited. Name it. have it all in me.

Today, i wanna thank those people that helped me through my tough days. that listens to my stories and feel my pain. and cry along with me. you guys are the best. You know who you are. we may have not hangout together but well, we love each other. that i know. and im sure u know that too ;)

i love you people! nuff said!

off to get things done for the hall. Take care my lovers.

Thank you once again dear friends :)

God is always there :)

Not many people know how stressed i was for the past week. Doing all the preparation for my E-day. From getting the food, to the setting up, to the dresses, to the doorgifts, to the hantarans. Life can be really challenging when you gotta deal with it all alone. And when family back out on you at the very last minute.

sometimes we all wanna cry and scream and yell at the same time. Well, i did that. Still, my worries are still there. Will it work out. Will it be just like how i wanted it to be? And Right to the very end, i dont fucking have a photographer. -_-

Like seriously, i DONT have a photographer for my engagement. And everybody has been saying, its once in the lifetime event, you gotta have it the way u want it. and nobody is there to take my pictures of the happy day. So, i sat down and think. Nobody is gonna pity me. i got to pity myself. So i should do all it takes to make my E-day a memorable one. Yes, i'm mad with their selfish-ness but who am i to ask them to help? Im only a sister. who bothers? Mak will bother but she's not here. I gotta bother my own shit then. Sad? yeah, but whatever. i'll get it done :)

so, me being all tech savvy. i googled for my last minute photographer that was like 3 days away from my E-day. Guess what i typed? LOL you wont believed me. i typed ' photographer murah RM 500 bertunang'.

I wasnt being a cheap stake but i do have some financial issues and the family are a bit meticulous. Its all up to me then to fork out the money. Well, they are paying for the food and pelamin and all. but other petty little stuff are left to me to go figure. Anyways, back to my googling, as i hit the Enter button, BOOM! i found it. you know what i got? I got this for RM 600! believe it or not? heee :)

RM600
- 1 DAY EVENT
- 1 UNIT STORY ALBUM (SEMPENA PROMOSI)
- COVER SAMPAI HABIS MAJLIS
- DVD SOFTCOPY
- UNLIMITED PHOTOSHOOT
- 2 JURUGAMBAR + 1 EXTRA PHOTOGRAPHER ( she said she'll add one more for me! yeay! lucky me!)
- OUTDOOR KAWASAN SEKITAR SELEPAS MAJLIS
(SEMPENA PROMOSI)

i know. i know this is a super good deal right? Hell yeah, it is. They take really good pictures and the lady, Kak Leeza is soo friendly. Felt comfortable the moment i met her. Go check it out Grasshopper Photography.

Whats pending now?

1. My heels

2. Baby's baju melayu

3. Door gifts 

Thats all i guess for now. 

Seriously, I went and see Kak Leeza and when i saw her artwork. I was thankful to God, he saved my ass this time. It was beautiful and up to my budget. and her art work is up to my taste. LOVE LOVE her! 

Thank you God. Thank you for being there where everyone else bail on me. Alhamdullilah :)

God is always there for everyone.Miracle do happened.

Weekends of CNY @ Ipoh

My CNY celebration was spent in IPOH. City of the laidback :) Headed back to ipoh on the morning of 3rd February.

I was imagining that my holidays will be me curling in my blanket for the 4days of hols. but instead I was out till 6.30 am. EVERYDAY! kid you not!


Here, a few pictures to share :)

Met up with 2 of highschool mates. Both are gonna be doctors soon :) its 5 years ago that last met.

and we decided to climb Bukit Kledang on 2nd day of CNY.

accompanying the boys for snooker at 6 in the morning

Coffee bean for dinner with yaya love!

met up with Bobo :)

yaya and wa

Jep, Baby and Syed @ Barbeza

Us :)

Us again!

Baby and Syed

Yaya and Syed

Ever so adorable yaya and bobo

Enjoyed my holiday with her :)

Yaya and Aiman.

Bobo and Me.

Its back to work y'all. No more waking up at lunch. Suck! I want my bed in Ipoh. its so comfortable that i dont suffer my backache when im back there. sad.

To end my post, here's a picture of my Valentine. Love him to bits.

HE'S GONNA BE MY FIANCE SOON :))

Holding back tears.

when you love a person, you made a choice to love them and their families. even if they hates you. even if they despise you. even when whatever you do seems wrong to them.

and yesterday, my heart was as sad as the mother nature. pouring and crying from the inside. there's so many unanswered questions in my brain right now. was it worth it? was it even worth it to live with? and i kept thinking what was my mistakes to them? or maybe i over-thinked certain things?

i may not be the perfect one for all of you. but i'm proud of what i have become. after all, he's not perfect too. and who are you to judge me? you don't even know my story. to be frank, i think you have such a disgusting attitude that i pity you. God gave u everything but not a good character and you gotta live with that.

can i turn back time? can say 'NO' now? its not that i'm being selfish and not think of us. but its them that i gotta live with in the future. how do i deal with it? when u dont even know the story of it. how do i even start the topic of 'i think your family hates me and i think we shouldn't get married'. that sounds a little selfish to me. BUT how do i get 'YOU' in the sentence?

im so confused, i wanna bury myself in the sea.

God please help me. 

Hello Blogspot!

I'm sorry blogspot. For past years i have been falling in love with the tumblr and i decided to ditch you. But hey, I'm back now :)

I cant find time to write now, i'm swamped with work and yes, i'm getting MARRIED this year. hence, explains why i dont even have time for myself.

Preparing for marriage is hell yeah tiring. all you need is the support from family members and your beau. I'm glad that Arief has been such an angel to me. He's really patience in dealing with my short temper attitude. Kudos to him.

For now, I'm still planning on my engagement ceremony that will be on 12 February 2011. Its like few weeks away and im not prepared at all. Kill me!

i gotta go, darlings. will do the rantings later.

toodles.

xx