Sunday just ended. I have the suckiest weekends ever. I missed being around people that knows me, that care for me and above all, that love me.
Its just different here. All you've got is yourself and your baby. How miserable is that. But yeah, I'm enjoying every second with my son, thats for sure =)
I know why I'm like this... i miss Mak. i just miss her sooo much. things are not the same since she left. everything just went hay wired and nothing seems right anymore. Sad but life has to go on, ay? I'm sure she's in good hands :)
Nothing can beat a mother's love. Now that I'm a mother myself, i finally understand what my late mom used to say,' you wait till i die, and you know there's no one else that will love u like i do'. sound tragic, eh? it is. i was rebellious at that time. mom and i can never meet in the eye. i miss those times. i miss her so much.
and they say, in laws are your mother too. i beg to differ. nothing can come close to your birth mother, only she knows you by heart and only her, that will protect you over anything and i mean ANYTHING!
i swear that i will take care of my children with all the love in the world and never let them experience what i've gone through. i swear to let them marry people that love them and people who never look down on them and most important of all, people who are sincere with them.
Its getting late, Mommy is sleepy. Calling it a night.
Till then Mr Bloggie.
♥
Mommy Mimi
Monday, April 9, 2012
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Let me tell you why
If you really desperately eagerly want to know, why i do not announce my pregnancy to the world. Read this.
I was pregnant, and yes, me, my husband, my family and his family are all over the moon. We are glad that God gave us him to add colours to our lifes. But as I've spoken to my friend, Aini, whats with announcement? What do you get?
You get people congratulating you for your pregnancy, telling you what you should do and should not do. Thats good. But remember, there's people out there that is not a friend but pretended to be. I'm not being bitter but sometimes I have to be since I've gone through it with many friendship that i in the end decided to end it.
They do not pray for your happiness, to them you are better of sad and unhappy with your life. Not everyone there prays for your happiness some pray for the other. I've seen people so excited on the arrival of the baby and in the end, they lost it. Yes, it is sad, i was saddened when i hear the news as well.
Its my life, I have the rights of letting who and who know. If you are close enough, you'll know. If you dont know, too bad. And plus i dont take facebook seriously anymore. So be it.
I was pregnant, and yes, me, my husband, my family and his family are all over the moon. We are glad that God gave us him to add colours to our lifes. But as I've spoken to my friend, Aini, whats with announcement? What do you get?
You get people congratulating you for your pregnancy, telling you what you should do and should not do. Thats good. But remember, there's people out there that is not a friend but pretended to be. I'm not being bitter but sometimes I have to be since I've gone through it with many friendship that i in the end decided to end it.
They do not pray for your happiness, to them you are better of sad and unhappy with your life. Not everyone there prays for your happiness some pray for the other. I've seen people so excited on the arrival of the baby and in the end, they lost it. Yes, it is sad, i was saddened when i hear the news as well.
Its my life, I have the rights of letting who and who know. If you are close enough, you'll know. If you dont know, too bad. And plus i dont take facebook seriously anymore. So be it.
Pregnancy and Checkups
During my pregnancy, I watched all kinds of movies related to giving birth, labor pains, and babies. I've always known that labor pains hurts like hell. I've seen both my sisters go through it, but yeah their stories is not the same. As what they say, everybody will not experience the same kind of pain. It differs. So, here i thought by watching those movies, it'll help me go through it well.
Not just that, hubs even bought me books for pregnancy before and after. It teaches me on how i should sit during my contraction, what kind of painkillers should i asked for, and how to detect whether it was a fake labor or not. Since it was my first pregnancy, hubs was really caring and attentive towards me. He was with me through out my pregnancy period, never did he leave me alone. In fact, i was blessed that he followed to everyone checkups i have with the Ob-gyn.
Talking about Ob-gyn, here comes the doctors and hospitals story. You guys might think I'm crazy but yes, I went to 4 different doctors for Adrian. Paranoia much? hahaha yes Adrian, thats how much mummy was scared that you are not doing well inside. I went to 4 different hospital with 4 different doctors and all of them are famous doctors that me and hubs had to queue for hours. Me being a typical mom, i wanted the best for my baby, so i don't mind paying extra and those long queue.
The FOUR hospitals are;
1) SJMC - Dato' Dr Siti
She's really famous. I mean like REALLY famous and good too. If you want your baby to be delivered by her, make sure you are willing to come as early as 7 am to queue. Clinics opens at 7.30am for you to take your number. Then you have to come again at 8.30 am to register and her clinic opens at 9 am and sometimes she comes in at 9.30 am. If you are lucky you'll be her first 10 patients, that wouldn't be that long of a wait though. If you are not lucky, you'll get number like 32 or so, please get ready to wait from 7 am till 3pm. Yes, that's how crazy her queue is.
But, she quite a good doctor, very positive and she doesn't scare you for unnecessary stuff. Some doctors are able to talk you through c-section just cause they wanna make money. So, careful!
2) DEMC - Dr Maziah
I was browsing the net, comparing the price to give birth, of cos i'll opt for the good place, good doctor and good price. I found out that, DEMC is only charging RM 2,200.00 for normal delivery and it includes charges for babies as well. I was overwhelmed with the price, that i straight away made an appointment with them. I wanted to see Dr Norleen but was fully booked. I had no other choice but to choose the 2nd best doctor over there, Dr Maziah, she's an expert in problematic pregnancies, so I thought its a good things since I've had early contraction before this, when i was in my 6th month.
The nurse called us in her room, she scanned me and her equipments are way better than Dato Siti. All very hi-tech. After the scan, she asked what kind of delivery i wanted, normal or c-section. I told her that I want a normal birth, she nodded. Then, she proceeded saying that she have to induce me the next week, and my baby was having not enough oxygen and my placenta is maturing too fast.
Hubby and me was really shocked because all this while we have been checking up with Dato Siti and she never mention all this. Then i asked her, is it possible for you to induce me at this stage, and she said it would be risky if want to have normal delivery, but we'll try, if you cant then we'll have to proceed with c- section. This means that I will end up paying for normal delivery charges and all c-section charges. I almost said yes to her because I was really scared that Adrian is not safe inside. Before i could answer to her, she told me that she'll send me for CTG test, to check, and she'll SEE us again after the CTG.
I went it to the CTG room, they plugged in all the necessary on my tummy and i have to wait for 15 minutes or so. Bear in mind, i have been doing CTGs like forever since my pregnancy was prone to a pre-mature birth, so they need to monitor me.Every visits in SJMC i have to do CTGs.
After waiting for 5 minutes, I noticed that i can't hear Adrian's heartbeats, this means its not located properly on my stomach, called hubby to inform them. The nurse came and she just change my position and she said,' ok wait 5 more minutes'. That means the CTG was only done for 5 minutes, what can you prove with a CTG of 5 minutes?
When i was done with the CTG, she brought that results to the Dr and here we thought that we have to go and see her again, as she will explain to us, because that what Dato Siti did. Suddenly, the nurse came back saying, ' Doctor suruh balik, semua ok'. I was like what the fuck?! you told me that i need to get induce tomorrow and now you say that i can go home, everything's fine. Hubby was really pissed with that.
Oh yes, and its not cheap, we had to pay RM 320.00 before leaving. Damn it!
3) Ipoh Specialist Centre - Dr Adlan/ Dr Nagara
That week I was back in Ipoh. Everything was just normal, my next checkup was in 2 weeks times with Dato Siti. I thought everything was fine. Slept off quite early as i was really tired. Suddenly that night at about 5.30 am i had this serious cramping pain at my lower abdomen and i thought it was stomachache. Called hubby up and he was sleepy and groggy, told him to give me hot water bag so that i can put on my stomach, he went back to sleep, and here i am fighting with the pain.
At 7 am called my sister and told her about it, she said that its contraction, so she told us to get to the hospital, as soon as possible. We are in Ipoh and who else do we go to if its not Dr Adlan or Dr Nagara. At about 9 am, we registered and opt for Dr Adlan.
Told him about what i experienced and he did the cervix checks. He says cervix are close, the he opens a medication book infront of me, to prescribed a medication for me. At that point I was like, what the hell? He used to be one of the good doctors in Ipoh. He diagnosed me with colic, jab me with painkillers for abdomen pain and sent me off for CTG. this was funny because, of cos you wont she any contraction, i was already jab with the painkillers. And yeah then, Adlan said that he has an operation, so once i'm done with CTG please bring it to Nagara for review.
Met Nagara, the doctor who delivered me :) He was all nice and said the CTG was fine and told me to have a proper check up with my gynae in KL.
Off we went to KL that day, to see Dato Siti, and yes i really had contraction and its not COLIC!
4) Damansara Specialist Centre - Dr Susanna Huam
You've read regarding my experience in DEMC, right after the doctor shoo us away, we then went to Damansara Specialist, this is because i wanted second opinion and yes, i was worried at that time. SJMC will take forever to meet Dato Siti since it was already 2 pm at that time and her queue is really ridiculous.
I already have MRN no here since I came for checkups here before my pregnancy. Susanna did a check on me, scan and all, she then explained that, my placenta is fine. It is supposed to mature when I'm in my third trimester, but it is not as bad as doing a c-section. She told me to relax and come again in 2 weeks time to see how it goes and to check my amniotic fluid. Yeap, I've had contractions, and my amniotic fluid dries up fast. Pity mummy's boy inside!
Thats how we choose our Hospital, Damansara Specialist Hospital, the baby friendly hospital!
Not just that, hubs even bought me books for pregnancy before and after. It teaches me on how i should sit during my contraction, what kind of painkillers should i asked for, and how to detect whether it was a fake labor or not. Since it was my first pregnancy, hubs was really caring and attentive towards me. He was with me through out my pregnancy period, never did he leave me alone. In fact, i was blessed that he followed to everyone checkups i have with the Ob-gyn.
Talking about Ob-gyn, here comes the doctors and hospitals story. You guys might think I'm crazy but yes, I went to 4 different doctors for Adrian. Paranoia much? hahaha yes Adrian, thats how much mummy was scared that you are not doing well inside. I went to 4 different hospital with 4 different doctors and all of them are famous doctors that me and hubs had to queue for hours. Me being a typical mom, i wanted the best for my baby, so i don't mind paying extra and those long queue.
The FOUR hospitals are;
1) SJMC - Dato' Dr Siti
She's really famous. I mean like REALLY famous and good too. If you want your baby to be delivered by her, make sure you are willing to come as early as 7 am to queue. Clinics opens at 7.30am for you to take your number. Then you have to come again at 8.30 am to register and her clinic opens at 9 am and sometimes she comes in at 9.30 am. If you are lucky you'll be her first 10 patients, that wouldn't be that long of a wait though. If you are not lucky, you'll get number like 32 or so, please get ready to wait from 7 am till 3pm. Yes, that's how crazy her queue is.
But, she quite a good doctor, very positive and she doesn't scare you for unnecessary stuff. Some doctors are able to talk you through c-section just cause they wanna make money. So, careful!
2) DEMC - Dr Maziah
I was browsing the net, comparing the price to give birth, of cos i'll opt for the good place, good doctor and good price. I found out that, DEMC is only charging RM 2,200.00 for normal delivery and it includes charges for babies as well. I was overwhelmed with the price, that i straight away made an appointment with them. I wanted to see Dr Norleen but was fully booked. I had no other choice but to choose the 2nd best doctor over there, Dr Maziah, she's an expert in problematic pregnancies, so I thought its a good things since I've had early contraction before this, when i was in my 6th month.
The nurse called us in her room, she scanned me and her equipments are way better than Dato Siti. All very hi-tech. After the scan, she asked what kind of delivery i wanted, normal or c-section. I told her that I want a normal birth, she nodded. Then, she proceeded saying that she have to induce me the next week, and my baby was having not enough oxygen and my placenta is maturing too fast.
Hubby and me was really shocked because all this while we have been checking up with Dato Siti and she never mention all this. Then i asked her, is it possible for you to induce me at this stage, and she said it would be risky if want to have normal delivery, but we'll try, if you cant then we'll have to proceed with c- section. This means that I will end up paying for normal delivery charges and all c-section charges. I almost said yes to her because I was really scared that Adrian is not safe inside. Before i could answer to her, she told me that she'll send me for CTG test, to check, and she'll SEE us again after the CTG.
I went it to the CTG room, they plugged in all the necessary on my tummy and i have to wait for 15 minutes or so. Bear in mind, i have been doing CTGs like forever since my pregnancy was prone to a pre-mature birth, so they need to monitor me.Every visits in SJMC i have to do CTGs.
After waiting for 5 minutes, I noticed that i can't hear Adrian's heartbeats, this means its not located properly on my stomach, called hubby to inform them. The nurse came and she just change my position and she said,' ok wait 5 more minutes'. That means the CTG was only done for 5 minutes, what can you prove with a CTG of 5 minutes?
When i was done with the CTG, she brought that results to the Dr and here we thought that we have to go and see her again, as she will explain to us, because that what Dato Siti did. Suddenly, the nurse came back saying, ' Doctor suruh balik, semua ok'. I was like what the fuck?! you told me that i need to get induce tomorrow and now you say that i can go home, everything's fine. Hubby was really pissed with that.
Oh yes, and its not cheap, we had to pay RM 320.00 before leaving. Damn it!
3) Ipoh Specialist Centre - Dr Adlan/ Dr Nagara
That week I was back in Ipoh. Everything was just normal, my next checkup was in 2 weeks times with Dato Siti. I thought everything was fine. Slept off quite early as i was really tired. Suddenly that night at about 5.30 am i had this serious cramping pain at my lower abdomen and i thought it was stomachache. Called hubby up and he was sleepy and groggy, told him to give me hot water bag so that i can put on my stomach, he went back to sleep, and here i am fighting with the pain.
At 7 am called my sister and told her about it, she said that its contraction, so she told us to get to the hospital, as soon as possible. We are in Ipoh and who else do we go to if its not Dr Adlan or Dr Nagara. At about 9 am, we registered and opt for Dr Adlan.
Told him about what i experienced and he did the cervix checks. He says cervix are close, the he opens a medication book infront of me, to prescribed a medication for me. At that point I was like, what the hell? He used to be one of the good doctors in Ipoh. He diagnosed me with colic, jab me with painkillers for abdomen pain and sent me off for CTG. this was funny because, of cos you wont she any contraction, i was already jab with the painkillers. And yeah then, Adlan said that he has an operation, so once i'm done with CTG please bring it to Nagara for review.
Met Nagara, the doctor who delivered me :) He was all nice and said the CTG was fine and told me to have a proper check up with my gynae in KL.
Off we went to KL that day, to see Dato Siti, and yes i really had contraction and its not COLIC!
4) Damansara Specialist Centre - Dr Susanna Huam
You've read regarding my experience in DEMC, right after the doctor shoo us away, we then went to Damansara Specialist, this is because i wanted second opinion and yes, i was worried at that time. SJMC will take forever to meet Dato Siti since it was already 2 pm at that time and her queue is really ridiculous.
I already have MRN no here since I came for checkups here before my pregnancy. Susanna did a check on me, scan and all, she then explained that, my placenta is fine. It is supposed to mature when I'm in my third trimester, but it is not as bad as doing a c-section. She told me to relax and come again in 2 weeks time to see how it goes and to check my amniotic fluid. Yeap, I've had contractions, and my amniotic fluid dries up fast. Pity mummy's boy inside!
Thats how we choose our Hospital, Damansara Specialist Hospital, the baby friendly hospital!
Adrian Raphael Farhan
Hello world!
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| I'm out, Mummy :) |
so yeah, haven't been blogging since last year, but i'm back now. with lots of story to share. Of course, one of it will be about my handsome darling son, Adrian Raphael Farhan. You are the apple of my eye, sweetheart. Mummy fell in love with u when i see you. and yes my boy opens his eyes when he was delivered, which most babies don't. bet u wanna see the world so much, eh?
now, you are fast asleep next to me, while mummy is having some alone time.
Will, update about my labor pains shortly. before that, i'll leave you guys drooling over his future heartbreaker. ( hahaha yes, mummy sees you as a VERY handsome boy!)
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| Sleep tight, little Adrian! |
toodles..
Monday, August 22, 2011
SLEEPY
one word : SLEEPY!
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okgoodnightbyeiwillwritetomorrowokbyeseeyoulateriamyawninginthemiddleoftheuniversityhallwheretheguardislookingatmeokbyezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Thursday, August 11, 2011
At last...
yes! finally!
The wedding album was delivered to us on Monday. Apparently he has lots of other job, which i think is bollocks.
Anyways, today will be my second last day at work. which means i am officially unemployed starting on Monday. hehe anyone wants to employ me let me know. haha.
I AM SO HAPPY I CAN DIEEEE!!!
I shall have all the time in the world to start decorating the house, the room. :)
The wedding album was delivered to us on Monday. Apparently he has lots of other job, which i think is bollocks.
Anyways, today will be my second last day at work. which means i am officially unemployed starting on Monday. hehe anyone wants to employ me let me know. haha.
I AM SO HAPPY I CAN DIEEEE!!!
I shall have all the time in the world to start decorating the house, the room. :)
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
You gotta wake up, darling
So, Hi, I'm back :) Sorry for the looooong hiatus. i wasn't in the mood of writing nor expressing myself. i was having a good time curling in the comfort of my own duvet.
let me just summarized it by listing down on the things that happened during my hiatus.
1. got into a major fight with Arief
2. REALLY MAJOR fight
3. got MARRIED
4. RESIGN from my current work
5. had a fight with almost everybody in the family ( dont ask im on this roadtrip to earth alone actually since born ;)
6. deferred my studies.
7. RUNAWAY
LOL seriously i was just joking at point no. 7. Practically i just stop my life, i just wanted to unwind and relax, i cant take this hustle and bustle of KL city life anymore. Sick of it, tired of it. People wont understand. Nobody will.
i lied. there's more to that list, but i'll skip :)
Sometimes i think i dont have all the guts to do all of the above, because i was so scared of what people would say and think. but seriously now, to hell with it.
P/S: yeah I'm a married woman now :) Call me Mrs. Mimi.
let me just summarized it by listing down on the things that happened during my hiatus.
1. got into a major fight with Arief
2. REALLY MAJOR fight
3. got MARRIED
4. RESIGN from my current work
5. had a fight with almost everybody in the family ( dont ask im on this roadtrip to earth alone actually since born ;)
6. deferred my studies.
7. RUNAWAY
LOL seriously i was just joking at point no. 7. Practically i just stop my life, i just wanted to unwind and relax, i cant take this hustle and bustle of KL city life anymore. Sick of it, tired of it. People wont understand. Nobody will.
i lied. there's more to that list, but i'll skip :)
Sometimes i think i dont have all the guts to do all of the above, because i was so scared of what people would say and think. but seriously now, to hell with it.
P/S: yeah I'm a married woman now :) Call me Mrs. Mimi.
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