Rainy Wednesday

Hello you. Sorry for being on hiatus. I wasnt really THAT busy but i wasnt in the mood write. I swear I was at this page yesterday. Every letter typed out was back spaced again and again and again. Guess i wasn't in the after all.

Its a rainy gloomy wednesday today. * wow that rhymes haha* so i decided to write something mellow. haha. you probably think, when is it that im not mellow in my blog post. WELL, today I'm gonna be extra mellow. hehe.

Nothing was ever perfect in my life. No, seriously. NOTHING. You might see that I'm happy, I smile, my status is all lovey dovey. Well, yes i am happy NOW. because I'M IN LOVE. Haven't you notice that? My status was all about him when I'm happy. Except certain statuses where we're not in good terms. but hey, couple fights ok. thats fucking normal. Anyhow, sometimes i find we are weird. We dont fight nowadays. Is that normal? i hope so :) *pray hard to God*

So, Arief Farhan, just in case you're reading this. * i know you dont read my blog haha*

this is for you.

Every night when our fingers intertwine before we sleep, I felt security. There was a sense of belonging in between. The warmth of your body tuck me in a deep sleep everyday. There is not a day that i fall asleep not praying for you to live longer than me. This is selfish. but if I were to live longer than you, I don't think I'll survive this nasty life. Apart from God, you are my motivation. 

People around us can say whatever they want but I believe I know you more than them. They can assume that they know everything. and I'm on a challenge to change that :)

i know you can do better. you just gotta believe in yourself.

and I, dedicate this song to you, my love. Because i know you are worth it ;)

The Proper Checklist

1. Dates

• Nikah            : Confirmed
• Reception 1   : Confirmed
• Reception 2   : Confirmed

     2.   Kursus Kahwin & Legal Docs

• Kursus Kahwin : Done
• HIV test            : 11/8/2011
• Borang              : 11/8/ 2011

     3.  Venue

• Nikah            : Confirmed
• Reception 1   : Booked
• Reception 2   : Booked

     4.  Catering & Canopy

• Ipoh   : TBC
• KL     : TBC

     5.  Pelamin & Deco

• Ipoh : Done
• KL  : Done

     6.  Photographer

• Ipoh : Done
• KL : Done

     7.  Videographer

•  Ipoh : Done
• KL   : Done

     8. Wedding Outfit

• Nikah           : Pending
• Reception 1  : Pending
• Reception 2  : To check dates for appointment with designer

     9. Make up

• Nikah          : Pending
• Reception 1 : Done
• Reception 2 : Pending

     10. Favors

• Reception 1 : To buy things for the gifts
• Reception 2 : TBC

     11. Bunga Pahar

• Reception 2 : Pending

     12. Hantaran

• For Him : Pending
• For Her  : Pending

     13. Rings

• His   : Pending
• Hers :  Pending

      14. Invitation Card

• Ours : Pending

      15. Cake

• KL : Quote received. To finalized design.

      16. Tok kadi

• Ipoh : Pending

      17. Handbouquet

• Nikah           : Done
• Reception 1  :Done
• Reception 2  : Done

      18. Guestlist

• Nikah           : Papa to come back on this
• Reception 1  : To discuss with Arief

      19. Ceremony Entertainment & Kompang

• Reception 1
  
  • CD of Favourite songs : To find songs. Arief to help :)
  • Slideshow                   : TBC
• Reception 2                          : TBC

      20.  Bridesmaid

• Ipoh : Done
• KL   : Done

      21.  Wedding heels

• Nikah            : Pending
• Reception 1   : Pending
• Reception 2   : Pending

      22.  Event itinerary

• Reception 1  : Pending
• Reception 2  : Pending

      23.  Wedding props

• Reception 1  : Pending

      24.  Spa treatment

• A week before Nikah : Pending

     25.  Honeymoon plans

• Right after wedding  : Pending

Signed,

Mimi

Preview ;)

Took my photoalbum from the photographer yesterday. So happy * dance around the house*

the picture is just a preview ;) i'll update more during the weekends!

*blow kissess*

Lips are sealed

That feeling where you have so much to say, to let out but you just can't because you're scared things will come out a different way which will just screw everything up and plus you feel like NO ONE understands you.

The checklist

 Last week, my heart was beating so fast, i became short tempered. i get annoyed easily. for once i thought i was gonna die, because all i do was sleep in my free time. i guess thats how my mind and body respond to stress.

Like any other day, weekdays is a bitch to me. Just in case u haven't heard me saying this, i'll say it again. I HATE MY JOB. thankyou.

Then i commented on a friend facebook status, 'guten morgen, lovers' which mean good morning lovers. i happened to tell her about my bitchy weekdays and she said, ' well, we all do, but demi sesuap nasi, suffer je la kan.' well, she's right anyway. put it like this, i need this salary to save for my wedding. to make it a beautiful one even if its not expensive :) well everybody dream wedding will cost millions. Unless you are as lucky as Marion Caunter lah kan.

anyway, i found this check list and decided to have it on my blog as well. i hope it will get me organized.

1. nikah, sanding & bertandang date
- confirmed

2. kursus kahwin & legal docs
- kursus completed 23/1
- hiv test done - 3 months before 11/11
- borang - 3 months before 11/11
3. venue
- nikah : Ipoh house (mimi)
- reception: booked. balance 80%

- bertandang : booked

4. catering & canopy
- KL: to have food tasting and to reconfirm usage of canopy.
- Ipoh: booked

5. pelamin & decor
- IPOH : DONE. to pay deposit
-KL: Pending

6. photographer
- nikah & reception : DONE
- bertandang : DONE
- pre/post-wedding : DONE

7. videographer
- nikah & sanding : pending
- bertandang : pending

8. wedding outfit
- nikah : pending
- sanding : pending
- bertandang : pending

9. makeup
- nikah : pending 
- sanding : DONE - to pay deposit to block dates
- bertandang : pending

10. favors
- nikah : pending
- sanding : pending
- bertandang : pending

11. bunga pahar
-- bertandang : pending

12. hantaran
- for him : pending
- for her : pending

13. rings
- his : pending
- hers : pending

14. invitation card
-pending

15. cake
- KL : pending

16. tok kadi
- pending

17. handbouquet
- nikah: DONE
- sanding : pending 
- bertandang : DONE

18. guest list
- pending

19. ceremony, entertainment & kompang
-KL : pending
- bertandang : pending
- cd of favourite songs : tentative list dah ada. to rearrange the sequence
- kompang & selawat : TBC
- slideshow for bertandang : concept dah ada. not started, arief will help =)

20. pengapit
- sanding : 

- bertandang :
- bff dresses for bertandang :

21. dresses for family
- KL : pending
- Ipoh : pending

22. wedding heels
- nikah & sanding & bertandang : pending

23. event itinerary
- pending- bertandang rehearsal : (to check with hall admin & timing)
- bertandang coordinator :

24. wedding props

- pending

25. spa treatment
- pending

26. honeymoon plan
- MATTA FAIR here i come :)

OKAAYYY i have like HELL lots of work to get done by myself but hey life goes on. i gonna live my life with the man of choice so be happy, Mimi :)

cheers! 

The Ghost of the Ex.

My ex? NOPE! Im done with all my exes. They are definitely HISTORY now. and im glad they are history because i love my present :)

so yesterday i tweeted, "Dear Allah, tonight I don't want to dream abt the past. Let me dream of the present and future. Thank you. Faithfully, Mimi."

the ghost of your ex is haunting me baby. god knows for what reason. maybe i felt insecure. maybe because all the things she said. and i dont like the past. you have thought me to let go, and so i did. but subconsciously, i didnt let go.


please please Allah. Im on my bended knees, please let me let this go or ill never feel happpiness again.


Love,
Mimi

I have died and gone to Heaven :)

relationship and friendship. both is vital to life. u need either one to survive this horrible life.

i wanna thank my baby for all the things he have done. Thank you for just being there and sometimes you u dont even say a word when im sad, because u understand. you know what i want. you witness every tears, every laugh, every smile that i let out. and im happy that i can share all that with a person as incredible as you. you were there, eventhough when i have my ridiculous mood swings. you stayed and you didnt bail on me. among everybody i have met. you stayed the longest in terms of patience. THANK YOU, BABY ARIEF :)

so, i have a beautiful relationship. what more can i ask for? friendship of course. well i have friends, but my friends are not the one that would take a bullet for me. its more like, hey we're friends WITH benefit. to me, why be friends, when you wanna be jealous of me, you were never happy of what i have. thats not friend. i rather not have you at all. seriously. im looking for a sincere friendship, if there is ever a sec that you feel like you hate me, go away. dont be my friend. i dont wanna get hurt anymore.

but for now, im content with the amount of friends i have. i dont have a whole bus. but i have a few 'take a bullet for you' friend :)

I'm happy with my life. I have Arief, i have my girlfriends. Im complete :)